Home Sick

I have learn a bunch this weekend listening to the family talk about Granny and plan that funeral. I wish I had an ability to write I could make this a whole lots better. But what I see a a man, my father in law, who is this really tough guy. His mother dies at 99, which I think most people pray and wish on falling stars to have there mother's around until 99. I know I do. And I think it is so ironic to be thinking about this what a Mother really means to you even at 99 on today Mother's Day! Which my girl's have been crabby, fighting, harder to deal with then most days and why is that? No matter what a mother is the rock to a child young or old. There is a special bond that no matter what, no matter how old the mother is, or the child is, they still need there mother. And I see my father in law Jerry and very special man to me. We have a neat relationship. I see him torn up, lost and really having a hard time but not wanting to let anyone know, what I know. I actually can hardly write this because of the tears thinking about what he is thinking about tonight with tomorrow we are preparing for the visitation and Tuesday the funeral. I love this song by Mercy Me and I felt the need to write it down. It is so true. The pain we feel but it is really not a good bye just some time apart before we will meet again. It also makes me wonder what my husband really feels about not having his mother around. I know she is watching us from heaven.

God did not promise days without pain, laughter without sarrow or sun without rain, but he promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way!

Happy Mother's Day to everyone!

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times

And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you

But the reason why I'm broke, the reason why I cry

Is how long much I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face

If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways

The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know

But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same

cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face

If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, ther are no goodbye

And in Christ, there is no end

So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have

To see you again

To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face

If home's where my heart is them I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strenght to make it through somehow.